Wrote this a while back, here it is again
I am drowning
and you stand there on the shore
shaking your head
reminding me oh-so-patiently
that I need only put my feet down to find ground.
I do so (it’s harder than you think it is),
regaining my footing,
wondering what you would do
if there was no solid ground for me to stand on
wondering if you understand
the need
want
desire to be rescused
protected
held.
Where did I go wrong?
And I am drowning again
and you stand on the shore
shaking your head
and never
understanding.
ooh, i love it! i’m taking my own meaning from it, and i used to feel like this all the time, and still do, trying to be more independent and lose the rescued feeling… feels like he’ll never understand, never figure out how easy it would be to just do it, never understand that when i finally get my independence, i won’t need him, and how will that turn out? do you think anyone can really understand unless you’ve felt like this? i feel like i can understand other people’s points of view, so why can’t he? he tries hard but… i’m rambling, and i wonder what inspired you to write this, and what it makes you think of… thanks for sharing this, to let my mind wander, to where i’ve been and where i’m going.
Pretty much the same set of feelings that you are describing. While I value that he forces independence, I wonder if he knows how much I still need, want to be rescued, not from everything, just once in a while…
Amen sister. 🙂 So many thoughts flooding my mind on this topic, but I can’t seem to focus. Maybe I’ll try later.
I’m always here. I’d love to hear what you had to say on it; it’s nice to know I’m not in (under) this boat alone.