You can skip Chapter 11 without losing the plot.
Sefton lay on his back in Lady Tasiyaâs bed, his wife curled against him and her head on his chest. His lady looked much smaller, he noticed, when she was sleeping, softer. She looked like the girls in the novels heâd read as a kid.
The exhaustion was pricking at his eyes and muddling his mind, making his limbs heavy and his thoughts thick. Still, he stared up at the fresco on the ceiling, the figures shadowed and impossible to make out, and thought about being married.
He held his wrists up so that he could look at the shackles, dropped his wrists to his stomach and sighed. Heâd said yes, of course. It wasnât like heâd had any choice â run off and join the bandits?
The bandits. His hands clenched into fists. Theyâd just let themselves in. The whole point of this set-up was that the egglings were supposed to be safe.
The egglings were safe, he reminded himself. You and Jaco kept them safe. And thatâs how itâs supposed to be.
He had been training in combat since he was able to hold a weapon. They all did, boys and girls, men and women. He lifted his hands up to look at the chains again. Men werenât allowed to fight unless they were bound into the army or protecting their egglings.
When men fight free, the world suffers. So said their nationâs charter, and their treaty with the three bordering nations. So said everyone â and yet over half the bandits were men.
The world not being fair was a truism, like water being wet, like the sky being turquoise.
He wanted to pace. When he was little, even when he was a teenager, heâd let himself out of the nursery and walked back and forth down the halls until he could go back to sleep. Heâd figured out homework that way, and problems with his siblings, and the week before the wedding heâd been out there every night, pacing, trying to calm himself down, trying to tell himself it would be all right.
Right now, he couldnât pace – couldnât go anywhere – because his wife was sleeping with her head on his chest. It was a nice feeling, quite different from anything else, even different from those times with Isham. Sefton sighed, his breath moving Taisiyaâs hair, and tried to go back to sleep.
When he woke, she was no longer pressed up against him. She wasnât there at all. Sefton froze. What was he supposed to do, if his wife left him in bed alone? He knew this. There had to be a protocol. There was a protocol for everything. He just – right now- he couldnât remember anything at all.
âHey, brother-husband.â Jacoâs cheerful voice came from just beyond the bed curtains. âCome on. Time for you to head back to husbandsâ territory and help me with breakfast clean-up. And then we can sit down and eat a nice hearty breakfast.â A pair of pants landed on his face. âGet yourself clothed and letâs go. The quicker weâre done with everything, the more chance there is for a nap later in the day – and youâre going to need it, after yesterday.â
Sefton slid on the pants, noting that his wrists were still not chained to his waist again, and followed Jaco mostly blindly back into husbandsâ territory. It was good he was following someone, because he hadnât been to the kitchen yet, and it was in a previously-unexplored part of the house.
The sink was full of water already. Sefton dug his hands into the dishes without being asked – Jacoâs hands were chained down, even if Seftonâs wasnât, and he knew from watching his youngest father that basic chores could become tricky like that.
âShe likes you.â Jaco sounded amused. Sefton couldnât really fault him for that, and it was a lot better than angry or jealous.
Sefton smirked at him, risking a joke. Theyâd fought together, after all. âI do what she tells me to.â
âOh, is that what Iâm doing wrong? I knew it had to be something.â Jaco laughed. âWell, nothing wrong with being a good boy if you donât have something to prove by being bad.â
âI donât have anything to prove. And I, um. I donât have anyone Iâm missing by being here.â
âWhat, no special friends? No girl you were thinking of?â This time, Jacoâs question seemed to have an edge.
Sefton decided honesty was his best option.
âMy closest good friend got married just a week before I did.â
There was enough information there for Jaco to put it together if he wanted to. Then again, Sefton really didnât lose anything by him knowing.
âOh, man.â Jaco winced sympathetically. âThatâs not any fun. But at least you werenât waiting mooning around long⊠wait. A week?â
Well, it was out now. Sefton nodded very slowly.
âA week. Oh, man, was your – your special friend was Isham?â Jaco shook his head. âDid your mother know?â
âOf course she didnât! Did you tell your mother about the boys you were playing with? I mean, some of them still act like itâs horrid, and the ones that donât, they act like itâs nothing.â Heâd watched a couple of his friends after they tried to tell their mothers. âAnything between two boys, itâs always going to be temporary.â He thought, guiltily, of how easily both Taisiya and Pherishhe had handled the information. That wasnât the norm, though. His mother, she wouldnât have been like that – would she have?
âBut if she knew, do you think she wouldâve still married you to, well, to his mother? Thatâs got to be awkward.â
More awkward was living with Ishamâs fathers, but Sefton wasnât about to mention that right now. âI think she had a deal she wanted to make, and I donât think what I wanted really mattered. I mean, she knew that Lady Taisiya was a good woman and that she could afford another husband. I donât think she really thought any more deeply about it.â
Jaco shook his head. âIt was hard enough for me, being separated. If it had been, if itâd been her mother, I donât know. I might have actually managed to run away.â
Sefton swallowed his momentary horror. âIâm not like that,â he managed. âIt might not be what I wanted, but Iâm going to do whatâs asked of me.â
âAh, well.â Jaco wrinkled his nose. âWe canât all be good boys.â
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